Its been some time since my last post, and I begin this with a heavy heart as I listen to the song posted by Michelle over at Lost In the Prairies.... Found by God.
That gave me the courage to hear the cries in my heart. I had turned the volume down on my own pain to go through the motions of this Monday. I think I did the same through this weekend's entirety. Thank you to Kandy, and her genuine heart over at Get Out of the Boat.
I'm so thankful that God leads me to sources of strength and wisdom when it gets this hard. I had been putting my faith in other things as well. I want to control so much of my life, and when the control is not mine, I fit and cry like a 2 year old. I scream at the sky, "WHY?!"
I was amazed at the number of children dropped at their first day of school by BOTH parents. So many dads... I peeked into their lives, praising God for the families while pleading for one of my own.
I did a lot of telling myself that "I don't care" when in fact, I care deeply. It hurts to care this much. I've heard of people locking themselves in their prayer closets and not coming out until an answer is had from the Lord. I'm not sure what to pray for anymore. I know God is always with me, and I know and believe his love washes over me daily... but there is something I'm missing. Answers that maybe I've been given but not seeing...
Its time to wake up and really tune in to what God has for me because I feel like I am crawling on the ground.
Psalm 116:8 For You have delivered my soul from death, my eyes from tears, and my feet from falling.
Hi Pinks, on Lisa Buffalo's post she asks is God enough? and posts some awesome scriptures. At the end of the day, we need to be able to say - God, you are all I need. He knows your needs, you need to trust Him. Praying for you for inner peace and joy and a place of contentment in your heart.
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Tracy
I love what Tracy said in her comment and offer the same encouragement. Just keep holding on to God. He loves you!
ReplyDeleteThank you both. Lisa, I didnt tag you, and I read yours before I wrote also! I love the mantra. It really fits well with the theme. Im not sure if that is the blog you talked about, Traci, but I'm glad you shared. I haven't allowed God to be enough for me lately. I keep trying to fill my life, self, and soul with other things when really I just need Him. Thank you again. :)
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ReplyDeleteGlad you have a new post up. I know how you feel, this is the Lord's battle, give it to Him and let Him fight it for you, let Him wash you with His peace and joy, He will do it, He loves you, He loves your children, He knows what you are going through and He knows how you feel, so hand it to over Him.
Blessings to you.
Kandi
Hi Pinks - her blog is http://lisabuffaloe.blogspot.com/ and the post I refer to is on 20/08/2011(saturday). She's a really cool lady. Hope you check her out.
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Tracy
Pinks, I'm praying for you that God will reveal Himself to you on a new and deeper level. Sometimes when we go through these tough times there is so much more we see as THE Light shines brighter in the darkness.
ReplyDelete(Tracy, thank you for the connection!)
God bless you,
Lisa