heartache

My heart is incredibly sad today, and I'm finding a hard thing to shake it off. I still have my own painful stuff in my life:

my grandmother's death
my dad's death
my sister's story of abuse
my broken home
my unrequited love
my strained relationship with my pubescent daughter

And I'm also a counselor. My specialty is play therapy with children, but I work with adults also. I am saddened because we had another one. A new one today. A life touched by the sexual abuse plague. A 5 year old boy. Yesterday, it was a 4 year old girl and a 40+ year old woman whose abuse began when she was 5. All of my clients right now have been effected by child sexual abuse, and I am so angry about it, I want to strap on the ninja assassin gear and take justice into my own hands. But really, anger is the secondary reaction.

I am in pain. My heart is breaking all over the place. I never wanted to work with these clients. Its too close to home. BUT ITS EVERYWHERE!!!

I asked my colleague if we would ever get to a place where it wouldn't feel like a back-handed slap to the face when a new tale of horror found its way to us. We both agreed that point does not exist for us.

So now, I'm crying so bad, I can't see the computer screen.

Father,
Please hurry and come. Protect these innocent children! Give me the words to comfort them. Give me the strength and words for their parents. Please, God... let their parents believe them when they find the courage to tell. Let there be a safe person in their lives that will protect them. Heal them physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually. Let them know they are Your precious jewels worthy of true love.

In Jesus Name I pray,
Amen