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I have to preface this post with: GOD IS SO GOOD! :)



Tracy had surgery. As she readied herself for this journey, she asked for prayer, so that is what I did. I had received a Word about prayer from a Mandy at Growing with God. (Thank you again, Lisa for that reference reminder.)

This source shared the scene in Mark 9 where a father brings his son stricken with an evil spirit to the disciples. They could not cast it out, so the father spoke to Jesus:
"Have mercy on us and help us, if you can.” “What do you mean, ‘If I can’?” Jesus asked. “Anything is possible if a person believes.” The father instantly cried out, “I do believe, but help me overcome my unbelief!”

So, Jesus cast out the evil spirit. Later the disciples asked Him why they could not do it.
²⁹ Jesus replied, “This kind can be cast out only by prayer.

After surgery, Tracy added me to her personal facebook page. She introduced me to praybook. I signed up and managed my "pray for your friends this number of times" feature. I felt pretty confident about the number I decided to do daily. I only veer from the path to say praying for people in a quick email format is more time consuming and tougher than I originally gave it credit for. God truly orchestrates this prayer.

The power of prayer is greater than we ever know. We never truly know how powerful it is until after we see the results. I say "we"... but I know this is so me. I respect anyone more mature in their prayer life than me, and I am certain with that maturity comes a greater understanding of prayer's power. Its going to be wonderful when I am in that place.

In the midst of my Monday night prayer emails, I also sent a friend and colleague revised editions of a professional letter she was writing. While in my "sent" box, I noticed emails I had sent my son's father. I opened and read them, and of course, they brought tears. The old wound of rejection re-pitched his tent in my heart, but I tossed out the negative arsenal and pushed through a few more prayer emails.

Later, I was almost asleep when rejection gave me his reminder. My mind said, "That was so stupid. Why would you be so stupid to send those emails. So stupid, stupid, stupid..."

My mouth said, "It wasn't stupid! Why? Because I have a heart?! Because I care?! Because I believe that God really can get a hold of people even when we painfully realize it won't be the way we want Him to!! I'm not stupid."

Then I cried and prayed. I woke up this morning with a favorite air1 song playing in my mind because He heard me. He showed up and renewed my faith and strength to continue encouraging and praying for others. It makes me think of those that pray for and encourage me.

Thank You, Lord! You are so good to those that love You! You do show us favour, and I hope I can humbly give to others what You have given me. Open my eyes to the opportunity. In Jesus Name, Amen.